The darker side of Wonderland.., Why is a raven like a writing desk?

After tragedy stuck, I ran away seeking the wonderland from my childhood. But I found a bloodthirsty place, barely holding on after my disappearance years ago. Now with only my imagination keeping wonderland alive, it's a much darker place than the fantastic land that exists in my memories and dreams. It's a dog eat dog world, no matter how you look at it. I will do anything to survive and find the way out of this nightmare I have created.